americankitten | Went to church today..... (Reply)

     So I was sitting there after baptizing and stories and stuff, spacing out on a lawn chair at the buffalo YMCA pool. I'm enjoying the sun, not really thinking about anything. Then I feel the lightest tap on my head. I think it's Worth, but when I look up iiit's ...
    JARED! Ugh. Earlier that day we had been catching each other's glances and looking away. The first time it happened, I got kinda angry and got up to walk to the bathroom. He was walking to the trashcan RIGHT THERE... I walked not two inches away from him into the bathroom, and he didn't even look up.
    So when they were worshiping, he was standing a ways away from me, and I was sitting in that same lawn chair. After the first song (during which I was glaring at his back) he turns around and looks straight at me. I meet his eyes for a second, then look away, moving my hair in front of my face.
    So yeah, later he randomly comes up to me and says hi. After his mom came and told him something, we sat in the shade and talked about jobs and school and stuff. It was nice actually, but there were a few moments where we were awkwardly quiet and looking away from each other. Finally he walks away, saying he needs to look for someone (the same excuse I've used before).
    Afterwards I went around to pick up our things and get ready to leave, and I felt quite depressed. I felt like he was watching me (good chance he was, really) and that he noticed my sad look. I sighed a lot afterwards too.
    Why did he make the move to come up and talk to me, when I request a friendship on myspace and he does nothing? I was thinking of asking him for his phone number, but couldn't think of the right way to say it. Guess I wasn't supposed to yet. I don't think he would trade numbers with me anyways. I guess he's seeing if I like him anymore, which I don't. I wish I could just say it straight out so this tension between us could loosen some. But no, that's not happening for a while. I need to get used to talking to him without all this -avoid him at all costs but oh god I hope he comes up to me- shit in between.