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Whoo more books today. T_T That's the only thing I hate about school. But at least they stay home and I don't have to cart them around.

I'm also glad I'm a senior because next year they're changing it to block schedule. 0.0 That would not work out for me the first few days. I'd end up getting mixed up and crap. XD The homework part would be okay with me though. But still. No.


I've got one of those songs right now that you put on repeat 1 because it's JUST SO GOOD! It's the theme song to House, but with words. And this girl's voice is so pretty I can't take it.

TEARDROP --- MASSIVE ATTACK

just to let you know.

You can tell I"m sorta hyped up on sugar right now. A coke and a bag of sour worms. WHOO!!! XD Life is peachy keen right now. That reminds me. Print out math notes tonight. =\

I need ink. And a flash drive. And a $125 check for a book and a shirt. 0.0 And just money period. Which reminds me again. Job. Drive. Get on it. Got it.

No poetry right now. But I will get on it once I get comfortable with my classes and start getting bored in them. =\

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Ah fuck it. i lost the inspiration. I was gonna post about a dream I had but I decided not to. What's the point? The dream was short and didn't really have a point any way. I also don't feel like writing anything else.

So why am I posting?

I don't know. I'm slipping into that familiar state of tiredness and anger and "ah fuck it"ness.

I feel comfortable here.

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As everyone else wishes, I too want to be "normal". And yet, I am still an outsider; being the quiet one, the small one, the one that blends with the wall. Nobody comes up to me anymore. I guess I don't matter that much.

It makes me not want to be "normal"; because normal means invisible. So I want to paint my hair red. I want to brings hats into style for girls. I want to stand out for my skills; poetry, photography, and love.

Yes. LOVE. It takes some skill to get used to it. To trust and be trust worthy. To figure out the other person. I'm not saying it takes a while to fall in love. I don't really know. But to love, that takes some input of some sort.

As is "normal", I want to proceed. I want to make progress, just as everyone else is. I am being teased that I don't have a job, that I can't drive. That I'm not already done with High school and already at the next step. I feel myself stuck, wanting. Which needs intention. Which needs desire. Which needs love. So what does that mean?





And this also. Edo will get this because we were talking about too much faith.


As long as people believe in absurdities they will continue to commit atrocities. -Voltaire