This Cold Is Sickening

Gah. I. Really. Want. My. VOICE BACK!!! ><

I sound like a sick nanny fran. I keep going around whining "Muthaaaa." Ha ha.

So Saturday I went to Abigail's house (Finally mom gave in) and stayed there till monday after noon. I helped her with a garage sale and we only got $26 out of it. So we both bought hair dye. Mine is sexy shmexy red. ^_^ I love it. Then Yesterday mom picked me up and we went to my grandma's house. (shudder of grossed out-ness)

I had called mom's cell phone to see if she would pick me up and Denise, her best friend, called. She said mom was on the verge of a nervous breakdown and I needed to come and help. So they came and picked me up. I thought that by breakdown she meant yelling and screaming but when I walked up to the truck with my dyed hair she seemed calm. Really calm. Almost sad. Which she was. On the way to my grandma's (Her name is Grum) house mom was crying. For like ten minutes. Talking about how dad doesn't listen to her and it's really scaring her and everything. And making her go through raising the kids alone and how she can't control the kids anymore because the two older ones are monsters and whatever. =/ I felt kinda bad for her.

We cleaned, mom crying quietly every once in a while. Holden, my youngest brother, and his friend, Robin, didn't notice or care. After we were done I was sitting on the floor next to the fan since the air conditioning had been turned off. I'm surprised they didn't turn off the lights and water too. =/ But then Denise came up and thanked me a lot for helping clean. Then she touched my knee gently, looked to make sure mom wasn't there, and lowered her voice to tell me that mom did have a nervous breakdown earlier, that she had given herself a bruise and had torn her hair out. I didn't say anything. Mom had broke. Woah.

It's just kinda sad that it takes that much to make the brothers clean because when we got home the house was perfect. =/

I talked to Parker about it. He asked which one I would go with if there was a divorce. Now I'm really worried. I've never gone through a divorce before. I don't think it'll happen but...... what if it does?

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So besides the whole possible divorce thing, things have been going good. We moved the furniture into Grum's room. I'm coughing up all this mucus inside me. my headache and lost voice are still here but whatever.



yeah. Whatever.