your sex is on fire
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americankittenI'm getting more involved on my deviantart now.
PURELYDREAMING.COM please check it out, they're needing more people. it's a simplified LJ, you could say. It doesn't even have ads on the pages, and a never ending story. It's a closer community. A common chat at the bottom of every page. It's pretty cool.
Had a dream last night about the last night I saw my mom alive. She was up and washing clothes, dad was at work at the hospital. I was watching mom, and she was fine, then she held her side and bent over. I knew something was very wrong when she told me to call daddy's work. So I did, barely knowing how to use the phone (I was only eight) and told him something was wrong. I gave the phone to mom and apparently dad called an ambulance while mom went to lay down in bed. I stayed on the front porch (We were in a second story apartment) at night and waited for the ambulance. They came up, some men going to the bed room, and one guy staying with me. I didn't want to see momma in pain so I stayed in the living room.
The very last time I saw her alive that night was when there was a doctor behind her and in front of her as she slowly, painfully made her way down those stairs in only a nightgown.
In my dream I relived that whole thing, all the way to when we got to the hospital and my daddy was there. I remember waiting there all night doing nothing, and being mad at the front desk guy because all he was doing was reading a book, not helping my mom.
But yeah, I cried last night when I woke up. Tried calling Parker, his phone was off, so I was alone.
I've been thinking about it all day today. Other memories too, like at the hospital when I couldn't see her, but my relatives were, and they were crying. And the night my daddy called me (I was in another city with my grandmother) and he told me my momma had died. And the dream I had a couple of nights later, of her on a bed, asleep, with headphones over her ears. Other ones too.
But I don't want to think about it anymore......
I just got a babysitting job for Wednesday!! ^_^ yay. So yeah if you want to check out my deviantart the link is on the right of the page. Please do. ^^
PURELYDREAMING.COM please check it out, they're needing more people. it's a simplified LJ, you could say. It doesn't even have ads on the pages, and a never ending story. It's a closer community. A common chat at the bottom of every page. It's pretty cool.
Had a dream last night about the last night I saw my mom alive. She was up and washing clothes, dad was at work at the hospital. I was watching mom, and she was fine, then she held her side and bent over. I knew something was very wrong when she told me to call daddy's work. So I did, barely knowing how to use the phone (I was only eight) and told him something was wrong. I gave the phone to mom and apparently dad called an ambulance while mom went to lay down in bed. I stayed on the front porch (We were in a second story apartment) at night and waited for the ambulance. They came up, some men going to the bed room, and one guy staying with me. I didn't want to see momma in pain so I stayed in the living room.
The very last time I saw her alive that night was when there was a doctor behind her and in front of her as she slowly, painfully made her way down those stairs in only a nightgown.
In my dream I relived that whole thing, all the way to when we got to the hospital and my daddy was there. I remember waiting there all night doing nothing, and being mad at the front desk guy because all he was doing was reading a book, not helping my mom.
But yeah, I cried last night when I woke up. Tried calling Parker, his phone was off, so I was alone.
I've been thinking about it all day today. Other memories too, like at the hospital when I couldn't see her, but my relatives were, and they were crying. And the night my daddy called me (I was in another city with my grandmother) and he told me my momma had died. And the dream I had a couple of nights later, of her on a bed, asleep, with headphones over her ears. Other ones too.
But I don't want to think about it anymore......
I just got a babysitting job for Wednesday!! ^_^ yay. So yeah if you want to check out my deviantart the link is on the right of the page. Please do. ^^
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