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I just need to write it all out. My attraction to a guy who doesn't really talk to me. My disappointment in bed with my boyfriend. These thoughts telling me to bore him. To let him know he doesn't excite me anymore, and I damn well know I don't excite him anymore. We're content, and I don't want it anymore. I want excitement, something new and exotic. I want to let Niko know that I like him but... I can't. I'm afraid he doesn't like me back, he's just being nice, calling me beautiful, that he likes my smile, and that no matter what we're doing he'll enjoy it because he'll be with me. I am just confused and I'm trapped in this bubble and I'm this fucking close to telling him I like him. 


(What the fuck I'm enjoying country music now? I must be losing it.)

What should I do? Wait? do it? :\